I began Studio Kittie a few years ago while I was working full-time, consulting for two different companies. Both companies were ethical, inspiring, and run by amazing people. But the work itself wasn't fulfilling me on a deep level; I started consulting out of fear and lack, and it never panned out into a dream job.
This is a common enough story for people fresh out of college, but after a few years I got tired of feeling miserable, so I rebooted my connection with Soul and started devouring anything that resonated and made me feel alive. Part of this growth process was honoring my call to create artistically, something I’ve done since birth and only given up after high school out of a false sense of duty/obligation. I started making jewelry again; I created a website to sell my jewelry; I just kept going from there... leaping from idea to idea, project to project… layer upon layer added as I grew back into my Soul and my Intuitive Self.
When one of the two companies I was working with let me go due to lack of funds, I actually cried with relief in the car on the way to sushi. I knew I would miss the people, and the feeling of helping others - but the escape from unfulfilling work was a huge weight lifted off my shoulders. I also knew deep down, in my most intuitive heart of hearts, that the timing was divine - freeing me to devote more energy to Studio Kittie. And when the other company downsized its office and I switched to consulting remotely, I grieved the loss of community, but was equally excited to completely recreate my daily patterns and environment. I spent weeks revamping my home environment to suit my new needs and support my new plan: make Studio Kittie my full time endeavor.
And after all that - which was a lot! - last fall I tore down most of the business I created and began rebuilding Studio Kittie from a soulful and intuitive perspective.
And now for some transparency: I had hoped to recoup my lost full-time income by now, and I haven’t. I'm still very part-time. And this wakes me up at night... I get scared sometimes that I'm not carrying my own weight. But fear of lack drove me to bad decisions in the past, so no matter how I freak myself out in the present, I purposefully return to the decisions that have made me happy. I choose to grow, to create, to connect, to feel what I really feel inside, and to be honest about the process.
Several times, in the dark moments, I've thought about finding another job that would pay me - to recoup that lost income. But my husband always reminds me that we decided, together, to pursue my dream of building Studio Kittie into a thriving business. I have so much to learn, and grow into, and discover... and I choose to believe I'm always supported.
The day I can finally forgive my fear-based need to move backwards in time will be the day when a pirate's chest of gold appears on my front stoop. As dreamy as that sounds, there’s a part of me that believes it really could arrive! Boom! Out of nowhere! Or, a miraculous gift equal to pirate booty. Because miracles do happen. And sometimes, the biggest miracle of all is allowing yourself to move away from the "right" thing that made you miserable towards the "crazy" thing that makes you feel like a whole and complete human being.
If you're feeling called to jump, to leap, to revamp your life - to make some sort of change - no matter how big or small, I'm here and available to help. There are lots of ways we can examine where you're at and where you're hoping to go from a larger, big-picture perspective. Whether it's a tarot reading, a channeled message from your spirit guides, or a wearable talisman to anchor in the energy you want to hold, my medicine is helping others on this mutual path of discovery. If this resonates, then email me, and we'll go from there! <3