I've been sitting on something for a while now. Well, sort of sitting on it. Not sitting to squash. More like, sitting on it to keep myself from talking about it all the time. Because polite women don't talk about themselves, right?
Except no one can share their medicine in this world without talking about themselves! And other people too! And starting a dialogue about how we all move and shake together in this crazy hologram of a world.
I've been living a pretty divided life the past few years, and that was ok... except now I'm running out of room in my head and heart and guts. So here's me spilling.
I'm a deeply intuitive person. I have been all my life. I actively smashed it down for a while, but then I was really miserable, so I opened back up to it, and now things are amazing. And getting better every single day.
It's hard to move around in the world when you decide to sometimes be something, and sometimes not. For example, I've been running my jewelry studio half and half; half the work openly involves and utilizes my intuitive nature (Talismana Tarot being just one example), while the other half never dared utter a peep (even though I use my intuition to infuse every piece I make with super duper feel good vibes).
It's more than hard. It's exhausting. And not very honest either.
Here's the thing: we are all intuitive. Every single living being on this planet has intuition. We all experience it differently, and use it differently. Some people eschew it - and that's ok. Some people make their living off of it - and that's ok. Some people (like me) use it all the time and are still figuring out how to incorporate it into their business life - and that's ok.
Mostly I shied away from discussing it out of fear I'd drive away potential customers. We all want to be liked and embraced by as wide a market share as possible. I don't blame myself for trying. Except we can't be liked by everyone, and we can't sell to every single person on the planet. For so many reasons. Better to hone in and focus on the people who see us, and understand us, and want to partner with us in the creation of something gorgeous and mind-bogglingly awesome.
So yes, I'm intuitive. I use something more than logic and facts and the scientific method to make decisions and craft my business plans. I infuse every piece of jewelry I make with light and love and the purposeful desire that it help its owner shine forth in the world like a brilliant star in the firmament. I can talk about this as much, or as little, as anyone wants to hear... but it's me. Ta-da!
I'm updating my home page today on StudioKittie.com to reflect this bean spillage. It's still scary, but it feels right. And I'm probably going to talk about my intuitive processed a bit more, now that I'm giving myself permission to crawl out from my hidey-hole.
I know so many of you reading this are thinking things like Well Duh! or Finally! or Why is this even news? And I thank you for that. For seeing me. For loving me exactly as I am. Seriously. Thank you.
For those of you thinking something else, that's cool and totally your prerogative. If it's positive, share it with me! Maybe there's a conversation to be had... maybe one we should have had a while ago.